For many of you, you know that Heath Ledger played the most dynamic and dramatic display of The Joker in the 2008 box office hit, The Dark Knight. He consumed himself with playing the role of The Joker to the point where he embodied the mindset and accidentally overdosed soon after the movie was filmed. Here is an excerpt from his 2007 interview with Empire while playing the role:
I want to note…anything you meditate on you become. It’s like the principle of manifestation. You speak the unseen into existence. That word meditation leads me to a couple of scriptures:
Words are no joke. And this is why you have to be super strategic and intentional about what you speak over your life and what you let be spoken over your life. This is true down to what you read, watch and even listen to. Words don’t have a filter. Like you can’t say to them “Hey guys I was just joking. I’m not a poor piece of crap. Don’t add to the manifestation of this idea.” Nah, it doesn’t work like that at all. And also casting down alll imaginations that set themselves up against who God says that you are and making them captive to Jesus Christ. (2 Corinthians 10:5) Chile I can go on about this. But ok let me get into the story….
Ok so for the past couple of weeks, I’ve been practicing to be in a play called The State of the Mind Pageant at my church, The Center for Manifestation. It’s about how different demonic states of mind can corrupt your life and lead straight out of God’s presence and eventually to Hell. (And no I’m not saying Heath Ledger went to hell. I am not the judge and I didn’t know that man at all.)
So boom! My part in the play is guess what? The State of Depression. And guess who was once depressed before? Moi. I took the paper with my part on it like “Bet! I’m finna kill this!” I’m sure God was like…
And Pastor Gwen, the woman of God who is over the production asked, “You sure you can handle this role baby doll and that it won’t affect you?” I said “Yes Ma’am.” I saw the part on the script that mentioned overeating and I was a lil nervous. Me being naive, I thought that this was simply a display of characters to teach people what these mindsets can do. But I always forget that we are spirit first like our father and this spirit life is….real. Paul says in Ephesians 6:12 “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” And if you are a believer helping God’s people become free from the chains of darkness through His light; then satan gone try you to see if you hard body foreal.
So the play was this Saturday, March 27th and I’d been practicing. Each week before practice (two times in a row) I experienced depressive episodes with feelings of anger, jealousy, sadness, suicidal suggestions etc.
I know I get in my feelings but this was just out of the ordinary. I’m also going through counseling right now to help with the areas in my soul that need deliverance before I get married, so I knew that I was somewhat vulnerable. But yall when I tell you…I was open for the episodes. Instead of taking the high road, in small situations I took the low road. Yo choices gone always lead you somewhere. But these choices occurred more harshly than usual.
Our practices were on Mondays and each day I was like…”I don’t feel like doing this.” or “I quit.” But when I got there to practice, I pulled through. Pastor Gwen said ” These roles are heavy and are not to be played with. Words have power so you need to cover yourself in prayer and rebuke the words you say.” At one of the practices, I directed the promo video and all. Even with trying to put that out and uploaded to the internet, the wifi at my house went out. It wouldn’t let me upload at the church. Youtube would not upload it. It wasn’t until I brought my computer to church with me at the next practice and we prayed did it upload. Satan really don’t want people delivered.
That day at practice we addressed again that we are not to take these roles lightly. I gave my testimony about how I’d overcome and there was also, Minister Gwen who is playing anger. She said, she began to rehearse the lines in her home and embody the character. And she saw that she was beginning to take on the characteristics. SHE IS OVER THE ANGER MINISTRY AT OUR CHURCH…THIS THANG IS REAL DEEP.
The play was a freaking hit. It’s crazy what happens when you let the Holy Spirit minister through you. I wish it was recorded but Hey it was so good we might even take it on the road!
The devil wants me dead. And If he can get me back to depression, how easy would it be for me to take my own self out. Not even kill myself but to tear down the work I’ve been doing to solidify my self esteem and identity in Christ. On Sunday, I found my self saying things like “Why Bother?” or “Nobody understands.” or escaping into isolation.
These demonic states of mind like pride and gossip will allow you to make room for other states of minds until next thing you know, you’re in a broke down minivan on the highway to hell with a bunch of spirits who conspired to take your life. And you let them. When you understand that the yoke of slavery is off of you because of the finished work of Jesus Christ on the cross, you don’t have to allow this to be you. Walk in your fullness or else:
The States you’ll see in the pageant are:
Everything is spiritual before it comes to the natural and even nonchristians know that. Nothing just is what it is. There is always a cause and effect happening. My heart still hurts for Heath Ledger because he ultimately became a person who he was not and the spirits of this innately demonic character consumed the dedicated actor.
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