Your life could change in a year. I was just reflecting on that with my significant other yesterday. 2020 has been nothing but change but surprisingly it’s been better than my 2019 year. I’d call that year “The Search” I was searching for my way, searching for love, happiness, peace and myself. I was home from Howard and Columbia with an ego that held me captive until it hurt. I thought I was going to be the Ms. L, the sub who cried on her lunch breaks, forever. I searched for self, love and God in the wrong places. I was reaching in the dark.
But soon enough 2020 would come. Sometimes God has to allow your life to fall a part in order to erect a new version of you. I’d lose some of those closest to me while new budding relationships with Jesus, myself, my Ardail, friends, my Naveszn, my church and old family members would grow. I’m now a caregiver. A girlfriend. Employed. Self Employed. A Big Sister. (I hung out with my 12 year old Sister Ja’yani for the first time last year and now I try to see her every other week) A music artist.
I was able to get a cool job with the amazing Gonsalves family who helped me get my first car and learn business acumen. (Go buy some of their amazing rum here) I’ve been able to volunteer and get an amazing position with an organization called Organize Florida. I’m working on 9 months with my love, Ardail. I really never knew a love like this. Someone who’ll love me from the spirit. Someone who’s brought me into God. Someone I can trust and vice versa. That old love I prayed about.
But the biggest element is my leap and submission into my faith in God the father, Jesus the son and the Holy Spirit. Faith without boundaries. And in the midst of a pandemic, I’ve received the most success personally that I’ve seen ever. Everything else in my life had been so easy but these situations I’ve dealt with have taught me love. Being a full time caregiver to my grandma taught me love and God. Being around her taught me that the spirit life ain’t no joke. There is power in the name of Jesus and spiritual gifts are real if you allow them to be.
Being torn down by loved ones taught me the importance of self love. Because if some of the people closest to you could toy at ripping you apart, you have to be solid in you too know can’t nobody break this down but God. My self esteem does not lie in the hands of man. But being blessed in the midst of it all taught me His love. Naveszn has seen almost 2000 viewers each month in the past couple of months. I hadn’t even written nearly was much as last year. But he will give you the desires of your heart. But There is no love without commitment. Sometimes we have to be broken into dust, not even pieces. Dust. Because if we had the pieces, we’d try to glue ourselves back together. But dust makes us totally reliant on God. Dying to yourself to live abundantly in Him and follows the ways of Christ.
Check out Center For Manifestation’ Engulf service to learn about the message for Ready, Set, Grow from Apostle Mark T. Jones
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